Unemployed

I can't remember the last time I was not working and not in school. It's been more than 10 years at least. Well, now that I'm no longer there, I wanted to share a total blogworthy story. If you've read the beginning of this blog, I blogged quite more often than I do now. I really hated my job back then and so it became a constant topic for my blog. I'm not proud of everything I said, but I never deleted it off the blog cuz I want to keep a history of how things really were and not how I remember them. Anyways, the project I was on at that time was a real test of my patience to say the least. If you'd like any idea just skim through the posts in 2003. All that frustration was due to the project I was working. I never felt so useless on a project and no one seemed to care that I had nothing to do and my manager only seemed concerned that it would make her look bad that I was unhappy with the situation. I spent 5 months on that project and I couldn't get off quick enough. I always said after that I would rather be laid off or fired than to go back to that project again.

Back in January, my current assignment had wrapped up and somehow that old project caught wind that me and some of my coworkers were available. HR assured me that they would find something else for me to do, but somehow they found out anyway. I was waiting to hear from some other projects and luckily I wasn't near the phone when that old project called and wanted me to come in for an interview. Alot of the management had changed around but it was still the same dead project. So they didn't know I had worked on it before, but I honestly think, if I had went to that interview, I would make things pretty bad with me and the management on that project. Management will always be management in some form or another in the future. You don't need to make a bad impression just because of a bad situation, and I would have made a bad impression just from being honest, even holding back some of that honesty. So I didn't call them back, haha. Since we have caller ID on the phones, that project kept calling and I never answered it. For two days they called me every hour or two while I heard nothing from other projects. It was seriously stressful.

Then the stakes increased when the program manager stopped by our office area and I had to duck out of my cubicle and hide from her. It reminded me of that scene in The Matrix where Neo hides from the bad guys in his office while talking on the phone to Morpheus. Ok, it wasn't that spectacular, but it still reminded me of it. Then I called one of my coworkers from another area to see if she was still around, haha. She came by there twice. Man, that project was desperate for some people. No thanks. Luckily after the second day of dodging, I got on another project. Then I finally returned that project's phone call and told them thanks for their interest, but I got on another project. Moohaha! I still can't believe I did that, haha. That's a pretty loser project when someone doesn't even want to interview for it, but there was no way I was going back to that. Hopefully I won't find myself in another situation like that again.

Anyways, my last day was a strange feeling. You can really get attached to your job even if you don't like it at times or even if you don't like it most of the time. You spend more time at your job than doing anything else. It's weird to think that such a big part of my life the last 10 years is now over. I'm both happy and sad about it. It's like moving and going to a new school except there are no bullies (hopefully, haha). I'm looking forward to starting my new job on Monday. I have a feeling it will be very different. In the meantime, I'm pretty much living my extended weekend of unemployment like summer vacation after high school. It will go by too quick I'm sure.